It’s a lonely feeling this is. Being so far and distant. 

I need you.

I need Tim to come back home :'(
I need his reassurance and his cuddles and kisses..
I can't live without him, and right now its really hard :(

I can't cope with all this shit.

I can't exercise today because of my really sore throat :(

But I just did 50 crunches. So thats something at least..

Food tracking today.

• Fruit loops for breakfast
• Honey and lemon hot drink
• Yakult
  
  That is all so far. Maybe I'll skip lunch & have crumpets with jam before work tonight for dinner. 

I seriously feel like shit. No matter what I do I'm always in the wrong.
I honestly wonder if its because you dislike me as a person. And it feels like you'd use any excuse to be angry at me, just to give yourself a reason to hate me.

I feel like I'm always  the one trying to work things out, and make everything better again, but you never want a bar of it.

I'm always the one fighting for us. I don't think you'd ever fight for me. You'd see it as a way out.

Food tracking!

• 2 cups of tea
• 1 pikelet 
• some heated up chips from red rooster 
• a chocolate icy pole
  
  
  That is shit food. But I haven't really eaten any meals, so its alright, whatever.
  I didn't eat anything today up until about 4pm when I got home ^_^
  This morning I even looked thinner, and it made me slightly happy. But not fully happy because I'm still fat and I'm not in the best of moods. 

Feeling detached as fuck.