Monday 30 July 2012


Probably my most recent photo. I was
wearing extensions because I was finding it
difficult styling my hair in a good way.
My regrowth (which you can see a bit of in this photo)
is really horrible. I'm getting it redone next weekend, thank god.
I'm sick of looking disgusting all of the time. 

Thoughts.

I'm pretty sure I've envisioned my next tattoo by Dean Kalcoff. It won't be for many months, but the final touches of my idea are beginning to come together in my head.
I know what I want, but its the details and other things that I'm trying to pull together.

Semester 2 at TAFE.

I think I'm going to enjoy most of my classes this semester, as some seem quite interesting and fun, but there's also a few I find to be quite mundane as well. But I guess that comes with everything.

My favourite classes so far this term have to be the 'arty' class, where we get to experiment with techniques on how to produce images (such as on watercolour paper, using chemicals etc).
I also think I'll love the video class! One of our main projects for that one is where we get to create our own mini video between 30 seconds and 3 minutes.
We were all given our own individual 'titles' and mine was 'The Path'. So I'm still tossing up some different ideas for that, but quite looking forward to bringing that together :)

Another class I find myself enjoying is where we are organising our own small exhibition! And we have split the class up into groups to be on different 'committees' for organising the event.
I'm on the 'fundraising committee', and I think we are going to do a trivia night to raise money :) that'll be fun.
And of course- the exhibition. Where we all have to produce 2 images based on the theme 'songs and stories', in which we get to choose the song/story. I have decided mine will be based on a folklore.

Wednesday 25 July 2012

Bought some books today!

First of all, My mum bought '50 shades of grey' last week, so I've been reading that a lot the past few days and I think its really good. Like it is actually quite a good book.

So today, I was in the city, and randomly came across a bookshop in melb central, and the 2 other books part of the 50 shades series were at the front, so I went in and was set on buying them!

I bought two others too; 'bloodlines' (kinda part of the vampire academy series, but a different storyline) & the crystal bible :)

Saturday 21 July 2012

I just don't understand. How my parents rules become my problem and my fault. I've got no say in anything, so it really has nothing to do with me. But somehow I end up being looked down upon and treated like I'm the one who made up the rules and did this and that.

All I try to do is make you fucking happy. Is that so hard?

All I did was try to make the best of a shitty situation, by offering to pay for you and everything, and it just gets thrown back in my face & I end up feeling like a complete idiot.

And just like he said I am my own worst enemy and end up making myself even more upset than I was today because I feel like I've done something wrong to make you angry at me, and thats not what I wanted at all.
I'm a complete failure.

Thursday 19 July 2012

Happy 21st birthday to my boyfriend Tim❤







Just some photos of us together a few months ago! Timothy Martin appreciation post!
We are going out to dinner tomorrow night, so I'll take some new photos of us together then :)

I love him so very much, my one and only. 


Saturday 14 July 2012

Perpetual dissatisfaction.

With myself and my appearance. I don't know if this will ever change or get better.
I'm so ugly and my body is so disgusting.
Well thats not something you want to hear or have someone think.

I'm putting on weight.

And I fucking hate it. The last time I weighed myself, it was the most I've ever weighed...ever.
So that really pissed me off. Especially since I'm trying to lose weight (although I'm doing nothing about it).
I keep eating junk all the time. And eating excessively. I just want to be skinny or a normal weight.
This time last year I was about 4-5 kilos lighter. And even then, I wasn't happy with my weight. BUT NOW I WEIGH EVEN MORE LIKE FUCK OFF.

The only time I'm going to eat from now on, is before work (because I'll need the energy) and when I really need to eat something, like if I'm lightheaded or something idk.

Tomorrow, I'm having a cup of tea for breakfast, and a cup of tea for lunch. And water throughout the day. Then I'll have toast or something for dinner.

Wednesday 11 July 2012

What I bought yesterday


Citrine! I love it, its beautiful. 

I will take photos of it with my SLR camera when the tattoo is healed :)

Maneki neko tattoo.


Just after it was finished.


The day after it was done (swollen and scabbed).


When the outline was done.


So this is my new foot tattoo :)
I am so pleased with the result and am glad I endured the pain to be able to have this on my body!
This was exactly what I wanted and I'm very happy with it. 

Monday 9 July 2012

Foot tattoo.

So I got my right foot tattooed, and it was quite easily the worst pain I've probably experienced throughout my life. It hurt like hell.

But the end result was so worth it :3 because it looks amazing and I'm in love with it!
I booked in to get my left foot in September, so a few months away. (Didn't wanna go through that pain again any time soon).

It's all gooey and gross at the moment, from bepanthen etc, and it just feels disgusting. I can't even walk properly either, I've been limping everywhere D:

I'll post up a photo later on or tomorrow, whenever I get around to it :)
I'll need to take one when you can see it properly, cause at the moment its got all the cream on it!

Sunday 8 July 2012

New tattoo tomorrow!

So I'm booked in with tattoo artist 'Kitty Dearest' to do my feet tattoos.
I'm getting the right one done tomorrow.

I'm getting  'money cats' or 'maneki neko', whichever you want to call it. :3

I'm honestly pretty scared, because I've never been tattooed on bone before, so I know its going to hurt
a lot on my feet :|

This will be my third tattoo! I will make a post about my other ones sometime soon :)
If we didn't see eachother on the 1 or 2 days I get off, we would never see each other. Sigh.

Really don't understand why someone would prolong my worry for an entire day when they could  have just waited til they spoke to me. Instead I'm left worrying about what I have done, questioning myself for the whole day not  knowing what for.

Saturday 7 July 2012

A little about myself.



Here is a recent photo of myself. (Not the best, I know).

Anyway. I'll start off by telling you that I'm really not all that interesting. Like, at all.
Little things make me happy, and little things make me sad.
I'm 19 years old, and I'm studying at TAFE, doing 'Photoimaging and photography'.
So yeah, I would like to be a professional photographer one day. I do not class myself as professional just yet. Not until I have my diploma and certificate.

I have a wonderful boyfriend, Tim, whom I've been dating for over 2 and a half years. (3 years in October)
He literally means the world to me, and I'd do anything for him. I think we are going to be together forever.
If theres such thing as soul mates, then he is it. He is practically a boy version of myself for the most part.

Since as long as I can remember I've been drinking tea pretty much everyday. It's something I can't live without. I'm a tea guzzling monster.
I have a great love for cats as well. One day I want to own beautiful cats of my own.
I have 3 at the moment. 1 at my Dad's house and 2 at Mums.
Yes,  I live between 2 houses, basically. And Tims!

So theres a little about me. I suppose I can elaborate some other time, but I felt these things were the most
relevant. :)


Some of the things I am waiting for in the mail!


A beautiful brooch to go on my top!


A set of gorgeous bindi's.

Gemstones:


Blue lace agate


Malachite


Moonstone


Rose quartz


Clothing:


'My metal pony' by NIKKI LIPSTICK

'Hail' by UNIF

First post!

So I just made this blog. Due to the fact that I think it'd be nice having a personal blog, dedicated to my everyday life.
I'll probably make a post later to tell you more about myself. But I have to go to work right now~